My phone is close to me almost 100% of the time. It is the line to my family, friends, maps, photos, and many good and bad distractions. I woke up on Saturday morning and my phone was dead, black, no power, nothing… I panicked…. how do I call anyone, how do I get anywhere without GPS in this big city? I don’t have my friend’s phone numbers memorized, I felt paralyzed for a few minutes till I remembered that Bryson’s phone was available. I called Brad and he suggested I go to the Apple Store and get it checked out. Thankfully it was a quick reset issue and I was happily on my way in a few minutes.
On the way to the Apple Store, I wanted to ask God to fix my phone but felt it was such a small issue and I was also a bit mad at Him for allowing this to happen. I had a brief discussion with Jesus about this first world problem. I asked Him, why do I have to deal with this when I have the big looming issue of Bryson’s housing placement. I wasn’t mad about the phone but what I wanted was to lash out to Him with all my whys and reasons this process was taking so long.
I have a conflict in my soul a lot of times, I struggle with just trusting God that He loves me unconditionally. I don’t pray enough, I don’t read my Bible enough, I get caught up watching too much tv, too much food, too much shopping. I feel the need to consistently say I’m sorry for all the things I don’t do enough of. When I stop and breathe, it a heavy burden. My head knows from my biblical instruction that God loves me through in all my failures and His love NEVER changes for me, but my heart it constantly needs reminding.
When the world throws inconveniences at me, it’s easy to question and wonder where I went wrong, but truth we live in a hard and broken world. As I was reflecting on what happened with my phone, I felt God speak to me….
He wants me to be with HIM 100% of the time.
He wants me to manage my relationships and my activities with Him in mind.
He wants me to call on Him when I’m panicked about life circumstances.
Most of all He wants me to do a reset on my thoughts.
I AM ENOUGH just the way I am NOW.
I AM ENOUGH even when I fail.
I AM ENOUGH when the world throws hard.
I AM ENOUGH because HE died, HE was buried in darkness, HE was without power, BUT… he reset the world 3 days later when HE rose….
HE will never be without POWER. He is always a CALL away and He will GUIDE me through all of the hard of life.
Lord help me to Trust and Believe!
Glad you got your phone fixed! It’s crazy how we are so dependent on our iPhones!
You are loved! In His hands He’s got the whole world and YOU!
Thanks for your encouragement Glo! Miss you friend!
Love this Lisa!
Lord, I believe but help my unbelief!!
Wow!