I have been praying since we started the adoption process for Stevan (just found out that this is the correct spelling of his name on his birth certificate) to be home by August. When I think of Stevan and his needs; being here to start school on time would be helpful; not arriving in the winter would be great. I shared this a while back with a friend and she said to me that we need to realize that God’s timing is the perfect timing and our ideas might not be the same as His. This left me a bit dejected and questioning “isn’t it ok to ask for a miracle and for the things that would be most helpful to Stevan?” So I continued to pray for it but with less energy and passion as I had before.
Over the past several weeks, the adoption has made progress but looking at the entire process in all reality I came to the realization that August would have to be a TOTAL GOD THING, because humanly it definitely seemed out of the question. We were told our case should be ready for the adoption board by August because it will miss the July deadline because they are waiting on Stevan’s medical exam. So I let go and told God I’ll just wait for His timing.
Yesterday, I got to talk to a father who is in the process of adopting their second child from Jamaica and he gave me some amazing advice of things that I can do to help speed up the end process. He also told me that the adoption board isn’t meeting in August because it is a big holiday month and they won’t have it. I felt let down, that means we will have to wait until September. This father told me that the July adoption board is meeting this Saturday. So my mind started spinning, what if Stevan’s medical came this week, would there be a small chance that our case could get slipped in? Because I was also told that after the adoption board approval, it could only be several weeks until he could be ready to come home. Then my HEART stopped, what several weeks? The whole thought freaked me out. I have been praying for August; my mother heart has been loving him and so ready for him to come home, but could it actually happen in a few weeks? I’M NOT READY!!! How could I think that? The best for him is to come home now, but what if I’m not emotionally and mentally ready? What if God’s timing is to wait a few more months because HE knew that I needed more time to prepare for this life changing event.
So my heart has been rocked today as I wrestle with the possibility of a miracle from God, but also telling God, I think you might be right, I’m not sure I’m ready yet. My conclusion as of now is that this is another step in my faith journey of trusting God that HE knows best and His Timing is always PERFECT. So if it is next month or October, I know that there is no way I can do this adoption without His strength, guidance and peace. He will make me ready for what Stevan needs from me when he comes home. I’m learning how HARD adoption is mentally, emotionally and spiritually, and I haven’t even brought him home yet. But I’m BELIEVING with 100% faith that this will be one of the best things that I will experience in my life. It’s all in God’s TIMING!!
Tag: believe
Living with My Hands UP
The week before we left for Jamaica I was an emotional wreak. I was hearing conflicting reports about things in Jamaica and just didn’t know what to believe. I shared this will some of my friends and I told them I was on a roller coaster ride. I DON’T LIKE roller coasters. There are two reasons why I don’t; first I get physically sick when I am on one. My stomach just can’t handle the curves and up and down moves. Second of all, I like to be in control, I want a firm grip on what goes on in my life.
One of my friends responded to my email about my emotional mess with these words “Just thinking to the subject ‘roller coaster ride’ … that it is for sure….and what is good about a roller coaster?!? Riding with your hands up, letting go of everything – especially expectations and enjoy the wild and crazy ride! Be carefree – not because you don’t care, but because you TRUST the ONE TRUE GOD!”
Do you remember what I just said was my second reason I don’t like roller coasters? She truly challenged me when I read it. I copied the quote onto another piece of paper and packed it to take with me to Jamaica. I also mentally put the image of my hands up in the air in totally surrender to God as I boarded the flight to Jamaica. I wanted to let go and TRUST, I wanted to put my hands up, but to be honest I was terrified.
We went to a resort for the first 2 days and yes I enjoyed the time together, swimming and soaking up the sun but I was not relaxed, I still held a firm grip onto my worries. My stomach continued to churn on occasion. I kept bringing up the image of my hands up, I read through my devotions and pleaded with God to help me BELIEVE AND TRUST HIM. My heart believed but my head was holding on to all the details and worldly concerns.
Tuesday we left Montego Bay to head for Mandeville where we would be staying for the next 3 days. The distance between these two places is not far, but it is about a 4 hour journey due to hair pin curves, pot holes and narrow roads through the mountains. I trusted our driver, but my reason one of not liking roller coasters became obvious as I had to bury my head in Brad’s lap with my eyes tightly closed to survive the nauseous waves that would go through me. We arrived safely to our home in Mandeville. Our family stayed in a 2 bedroom rental. No internet, no phone, no TV… we were told to not go outside the locked gates of the house. Our driver left and it was just our family left there in the middle of this tiny island far far from home. Bryson’s comment was that we were like the Amish; Ty clarified that at least we had electricity!!! I caught Ty standing by the locked and barred screen door and asked him if he felt like he was in prison, he answered with a yes. Through all the differences, we settled in…. we were served amazing Jamaican food by our beautiful cook Karen. We bonded together as a family in a way we probably hadn’t before.
Tuesday night, I couldn’t fall asleep right away, getting used to the dogs barking and other noises of the neighborhood. As I lay in bed, I cried out to God for complete TRUST…. HE heard me and reminded me of his miraculous power and I cried myself to sleep. I woke up early Wednesday morning and went to spend some time in the Word. This is the scripture He gave to me; Isaiah 41:13 For I hold you by your right hand- I, the Lord your God. And I say to you, Don’t be afraid, I am here to help you. God was moving, I felt the grip start to loosen, I was totally out of my element and it was GOOD because HE had my hand, He was there to help!
On Wednesday we sent the boys off to a Basic school (3-6 years olds) with the youth group from Brad’s home church in Manitoba, Canada. (The youth leaders were Brad’s niece and nephew) Brad and I headed to Kingston with our Jamaican friend, Patrick to meet with Stephen’s social worker. Our meeting with her was brief but good. She clarified that Stephen had no family and was available. All that needed to happen to make sure things were fair was to run through their database to make sure that no other family had applied before us for a 12 year old boy. Most people want to adopt 2-6 year olds so I wasn’t worried, but I just wanted to KNOW. We were told that we would know by the end of the week. (we haven’t heard yet) but I’m OK with that. I had shared with the social worker and adoption coordinator at the agency about how God directly spoke to me about Stephen being a part of our family. It seemed from their reactions that they were both Christians, they just stated “if it is God’s will it will happen.” I let go a bit more of my grip, God is working….. He has people in place that BELIEVE.
Brad’s niece and husband are in the process of adopting an 8 year old boy from the same orphanage as Stephen. They had been having a hard time with some of the workers and weren’t sure that they would get to see their son. We had been given a letter on Wednesday that gave permission for us to go to the orphanage and see Stephen on Thursday. So Thursday morning, I went with them to see their social worker. After discussion and several phone calls, the plan was for the orphanage director to bring both boys to the agency at 4:00 that afternoon. I had been up at 5 that morning and spend time pleading and seeking God for a miracle for them to see their son. I saw God moving again and I could feel myself let go even more of my grip. At first I was disappointed that we wouldn’t get to go to the orphanage for the whole family to see where Stephen lived. But God revealed later to us; HIS plans were better than ours.
We send Thursday with the youth group going again to the basic school the boys had been at the day before. They were having their annual sports day. It was fun to watch these kids participate in their races. I couldn’t keep from checking the time often. The time felt like it was going so slow. I was going to meet Stephen again, this time with a love in my heart that had been beautifully placed there by God. What exactly do you ask a 12 year old boy? What do you talk about? I didn’t want to overwhelm him with five people surrounding him asking questions.
We arrived to the agency before 4 and I set in the back of the van for awhile seeking God’s face for wisdom and peace. The sky produced a heavy rainfall and we had to run into the agency. We were called back and into the room, there he sat in a big board room chair. The boy who had captured my heart. As Bryson, Ty and Kaden entered the room, Brad asked Stephen if he remembered Ty and the way Stephen’s eyes lit up, I think there was some recognition. We used pictures from my phone to break the ice. Showing him pictures from our trip up till then in Jamaica and pictures from home. Then we started asking him questions. He wrote the answers out on a piece of paper and nerves started to calm down and there were smiles and bonding started to happen. My mind raced at all that we should ask him, we kept it to fairly light questions; favorite sport, food, color etc. Finally I leaned over and asked “Stephen do you know that we want to make you part of our family?” He replied quickly acknowledging that he had known before. I was relieved because he didn’t seem upset or too scared. I felt that words were said in peace.
I had been worrying that maybe I was wrong in my impression of him at our first meeting last July. But after a short time of interaction it was confirmed that my impressions were right, a beautiful, kind, soft spoken and smart boy. It was awesome for me to watch Brad and Stephen bond. My amazing husband, who said YES with total blind faith about this boy. Brad told me later how he had been worried too if I had been accurate on my impression of Stephen. We took pictures and the hour went too fast. We told him we had no idea how long it would be but we would come get him and we left him there. My heart ached but also I felt this flooding of peace that he would be OK, God had Stephen in the palm of HIS hand, I can TRUST. AS we walked outside the rain had stopped and it had cooled the temp down, it was like God was breathing a freshness into me. I felt a lightness about me and as I think about it now I think my hands were up in the air with open palms.
My life journey has been filled with many roller coaster rides full of UPS, DOWNS and twisting TURNS. I found God’s comfort through the loss of my dad; peace and courage through Brad’s accident and lung surgery. I have felt God’s strength, hope and understanding through the life of Bryson. Each of these experiences have brought me to a new place of trust and to a deeper place of fellowship with God. But I have to be honest this journey that started on November 7th has taken me to a place that I haven’t experienced before. Each of the other experiences were out of my control to start with; I had to rely on God and trust HIM because of what had been given to me. This journey I CHOOSE; I answered with a YES; I stepped out into the UNKNOWN; I put myself on this roller coaster ride! With one obedient step I got into the coaster car along with my family; I fastened my seat belt and I told God GO…… I’m all in, I’m here for the ride that you have called me too…… Yes, I know that it has taken me awhile, (I’m a slow truster) and because I’m not perfect I will find myself griping the bar with white knuckles again. I don’t have clear answers or a timeline for this journey, but for now I am going to put my hands up, let go of my expectations and enjoy this wild and crazy ride with HIM.
On a God Adventure
As I reflect back on the past year, I can clearly see God’s hand in it all. He has moved, shaken, blessed and surprised me. It has brought me to a place of full dependency in some areas and a place of awe in others. What seemed like different paths He had me on, I can see clearly now, His hand weaving all these paths together for one amazing adventure.
Let me bring you onboard my adventure. In March, 2013 I started online classes at Light University Online to become a Christian Life Coach. I completed my classes in November of 2013 to receive an Advanced Diploma in Life Coaching. At first this was a scary thing for me because I had not applied my mind to education in 20 years. But I fell in love with the learning and the classes. My main three electives were Hope Coaching, Stress Management and Spiritual Formation. I’m just now slowly getting my coaching practice started.
In June, Ty and I ventured on a mission trip to Jamaica with 8 other people, mostly Brad’s family members. This was an amazing time of discovery and heartbreak for me and it was an eye opening experience for Ty. I will always remember the mother/son bonding that happened those 11 days. I just thought I was on a mission trip; well God had bigger plans in store……….. (Just hang on; I’ll get back to this.)
The years of 2011 and 2012 were very difficult for my health, I was dealing with Fibromyalgia like symptoms, I ached all over and was exhausted all the time. I went through a battery of tests and discovered nothing. Finally in January 2013, I had my food allergies taken and it showed I was allergic to 19 foods (it included all the normal foods I ate) I went into a mild depression and didn’t see how I could eliminate those foods from my diet. Then I discovered Isagenix, a nutritional cleansing system that provides your body the nutrition it needs for optimum health. I started it in August, and immediately started feeling better and I have lost a total of 40 pounds already. I got my health and my life back.
So back to BIGGER PLANS……. God gave me a great year of learning and education that increased my confidence and gave me a clear career path. He brought me products that helped restore my health. He sent me on a mission trip to Jamaica. In all of these things, I BELIEVE His main purpose was exposed when on November 7th, He spoke to me and He said, Lisa you are to adopt STEPHEN!! Yes, ADOPT. Stephen is an 11 year old boy that we met in the summer. He made a great impact on our mission team. I was shaking, excited and scared. I really wanted to bury this and forget I heard this, but it was too strong to bury. I send an email to Brad at work and it said:
“Brad I am going crazy right now. I just had a crazy thought or a God moment and I don’t know what to do with it. This morning I had been praying for some of the kids from Jamaica that I had met this summer like I do, nothing unusual happened. When I was working out at the gym they had a segment on the today show about adoption, great, made me teary but finished my workout. Came home and get into the shower and it was like bang… Stephen in the red shirt popped into my head. 
He was an amazing young man, 11 years old, full of vision and love for Jesus. I had this wrenching in my heart and it was like I need to bring him home. I have no idea if he is even adoptable and as you can tell, I never had any heart pulls this summer when I was there. What am I to do Brad?
I will sit on it, pray it, but what is it?????? I am honestly scared to death of this thought.”
I arrived in Brad’s office 20 minutes after I sent the email and I asked him so what do you think of my email? He sat there and was quiet for awhile, which to me felt like forever. Finally he smiled and went on to share how the evening before he had been at a men’s group. He had been asked what 2 words describe his life currently. One of his words was unrest. He had told the men that we had been seeking God as to what He wants for our lives and Brad’s exact words to these men were “we could adopt but Lisa is not very domestic!” Yep you heard him right. So when Brad got my email and he recalled the events of the evening before he could only say, YES!
So together we prayed about it, I contacted our friend in Jamaica to see if he could find out if Stephen was adoptable. When we found out that he was available we talked to our boys and they all said YES and the journey began! We currently have our papers submitted to the US government and waiting for approval. We have our initial Jamaican papers filed in Kingston and just today I found out Stephen’s last name and birth place. All of Stephen’s personal information has been added to our file today and now we are waiting for initial approval and then we will submit our entire package to them. Our hearts have totally fallen in love with our new son and brother. This mother’s heart is full of love and to be honest I am scared.
My word for 2014 is BELIEVE and I am clinging to the promise that where God calls, He will lead and never abandon. The Plett family’s world is going to be rocked in the next year. I know that God is on this adventure with us and it is all because we listened and obeyed. The rest has got to be placed in GOD’s hands. I’m good with that.