The last two days have been rough! The battle is in full motion. The feelings of discouragement, hopelessness and despair have been overwhelming. But, today as I sit here at the kitchen table there is a sense of HOPE in the air.
Monday night I received a devastating email that sent me spiraling. I wept, I was angry, I called Brad and I told him this whole thing was a waste and I told him that I wanted to just go home.
But God knew that this Monday night I would be in this place, and He knew it would not be good for me to be alone. That morning at 8:45, I picked up Fran, one of my best friends at the airport. She came out and sat by me on the back porch after I got off the phone with Brad. She spoke truth to me, encouraged me and let me sit in my hard place. She then suggested a solution regarding Bryson’s situation that I never had thought about. Hope filled the back porch. Before I went to bed, I emailed this idea to
the agency I had been working with. Yesterday, emails were going back and forth and before I headed to bed last night, the last email received was positive that things were in motion and maybe I could avoid the appeal.
God KNEW what I would need, I don’t understand why I have to walk through this valley, but God used Fran as a vessel to speak to me, to tell me the path I needed to take.
We all can be vessels for God’s purposes to speak into the lives of those around us. God is ALL knowing and HE knows what we need. Trust and Faith are hard. I don’t know when this battle will be over but I will focus on all that He has done for me so far and HOLD TIGHT to His hand.
Fran was sent at the right time! He knows.
Continued prayers!💞
What a journey this has been! I’m so thankful that you are journaling all of this! God has been so faithful each step of the way and when things get hard you have these reminders written down to look back on know that God is with you and moving on your behalf!